Shay's Friend Refrence Guide

I realized I talk about a lot of my friends without giving much description of them so I will do that now. In alphabetical order. This will probably be a long list, with updates when necessary.

Al (25)- My neighbor in my apartment sophomore year of college, had a major crush on me, and we used to drink about 5 nights a week. It seems like he is always getting in trouble with the law!!

Blaine (22)- Another creepster neighbor I had sophomore year. He would confess his love for me through angry drunken text messages. Wonderful neighbors I had.

Bree (20)- My roommate sophomore year of college. Not the best roommate I have ever had. She is fun to party with, but doesn't pay her rent and borrows whatever the hell she feels like borrowing from me. I've seen her do coke at parties, so that's probably where she blows the money she should be spending on rent.

Brigit (20)- A friend from high school. She sends the most random pointless texts ever, and is what I consider the comic relief in my life story! Just think you're stereotypical "dumb blond"

Jared (22)- A close friend of mine from high school. We used to be really really close, together all the time, but have recently started growing apart, although we are still friends at the end of the day. He is very overprotective of me, and doesn't approve of Seth, although he has never met him.

Jess (24)- My sister. She's 24 and now that we are getting older we are getting closer. She is recently engaged and getting married in June 2009.

Joel (20)- He was my first real serious boyfriend, when I was in 10th grade. We dated for over a year, and he was absolutely my first love. I still care about him a lot, and we talk all the time. He lives out of state though. My mom still believes I will end up with him one day. He talks about our marriage plans too. Hah.

Jonah (20)- Close friend from high school. Last spring break he came out to me, even though we all had it figured out already. But I was glad he felt he trusted me enough to be the first one he told. He's notorious for being hard to get a hold of and randomly disappearing all the time. His house is much like Eric Foreman's basement for us.

Kat (20)- My best friend. We met in 4th grade when she moved in 3 houses away from me, and we are still best friends. In the ten years we have been friends, we have never even been in a fight. She goes to a college that is only about 15 minutes away from the one I go to, so I get to see her a lot, thank god.

Keri (20)- Another close friend of mine who lived on the same street as me growing up. We go to the same college, and she's one of my current roommates. LOVE LOVE LOVE her!!!

Marie (21)- Another very close friend of mine from high school. She has an apartment in my hometown, so I really only see her when I'm staying at my parents. She is insane, in a good way.

Mason (21)- The guy I dated on and off all of Freshman year of college. We were extremely close though while dating, he was my first and best friend at college at the time. We just get each other. Now we are just friends, and we don't see each other that often. There is still some sexual tension in the friendship and we always end up hooking up again.

Megan (20)- My other roommate. She's alright. I wish she would hang out with me and Keri more though.

Ray (21)-another friend from back home, a lot of people think he's kind of shy, but he's not around me and he and I are very close.

Seth (25)- My current on/off kinda ex-boyfriend. Confused? ha. We met in late January 2008, and had our first date the day after we met. I met him at college, although he's 25 and graduated in 2007. He lives permanently in my college town.

Wade (20)- We dated for 2 years in high school, and even decided to go to college together. Then we broke up at the beginning of college. We got back together for a while spring semester of freshman year, but it just doesn't work between us. He now lives across the street from me, and we hang out a couple of times a week. He's one of my closest friends, and a person I can really trust and confide in.

Oh man, its been a month!?

Damn, almost a month since my last post! Fucking finals! I had about 6 papers to write, no fun at all. Now I am officially living at home for the summer. I moved back on Saturday evening. Starting my long long summer away from Seth. Luckily for you it's only been like 3 days since I've seen him last, so I don't miss him too much yet, and won't yammer on and on about it. I might be seeing him on Thursday anyway, since he has to drive through this area he might stop by. My friends and I are also planning our yearly week long trip to my friend Marie's cabin. It's my favorite week of the year. And Seth will be joining us this year! Yay for Boyfriend/Friend bonding!!

Oh, and remember Al? My neighbor? He just got his 4th dwi, and is now going to prison for 4 years. Damn. What a catch. Maybe I should have dated him when I got the chance. Not.

Although I am sad because he was sure as hell fun to party with, and always got me into the bars, even though I'm not 21, and don't have a fake. He wouldn't have been my neighbor anyway, because I'm moving next year with 2 friends that I'm pretty sure I'll like living with a lot more than my current roommate Bree. She's fun to party with, but not such a good roommate. These other two girls are pretty clean though, and I'm afraid I'll be the messy one. Their names are Megan and Keri. Megan and I lived together in the dorms freshman year, and got a long great so I know I can live with her. And me and Keri have been friends since elementary school, so next year should be all time.

A few days before I moved out, my ex Mason came over to pick up some stuff he had left at my apartment, and I had been dreading having him stop over. It sounds crazy, but even though I don't have romantic feelings for him anymore, we have great sexual chemistry, and I was doubting my resisting abilities. Every time we hang out since our break up, it leads to us hooking up. He always initiates, but for me he is hard to resist, and I'm not sure why. It's not a looks thing, or that he is even all that charming. He's a great kisser though, and great at everything else. Once he touches me I feel powerless.

So when he came over I knew what he was expecting. So I gave him his things and then he asked for a hug. Harmless right? We're still friends, so I hugged him. Once I pulled away a little bit, he went in for the kiss. Thinking as fast as I turned my head and he ended up kissing my ear??? It was weird, and he asked what was wrong. I told him I was dating someone and Mason seemed surprised I wasn't going to go for it with him anyway. After that he pretty much bolted for the door as we said some awkward goodbyes. About a half hour after he left he texted me "I'm proud of you." I asked him what he meant, and all he said was "You're a good person."

So thats been the highlights of the last few weeks, I'm sure there is much more, but I don't wanna make this too long. I'll try to keep up more.

Peace!
Shay

MUSHY POST ALERT!!!!!!!!!

Last night with Seth was amazing!!! He's done a complete 180, from distant and emotionally guarded, to sweet, warm, and passionate. Me gusta!!! It sounds pretty pathetic, but I think last night was the first time he has actually held my hand or put his arms around me when when were out in public. Which makes me happy because to me the gesture says that he actually cares about me, instead of me just being the girl he calls up when hes bored and lonely. When we were back at his apartment, the way he held me was just different than it had been before. It felt meaningful, closer, tighter. He called into work sick this morning so he could spend the day with me since I'm going back to my parents house this weekend. I don't understand why it took three months to get him to come around, but right now I'm really glad I decided to wait for him to get there!

Are you vomiting from the mushiness yet??

Well now I'm heading home for the weekend, catch up with high school friends and what not. I can't wait to see my cute little kitty! My apologies on the overly upbeat tone of this post. There is one thing that may or may not bother me about Seth... but I have yet to decide, and I'll post about it later.

I hate creepster neighbors

Al's obsession I fear is getting into the regions of "too far." He has texted me every night this week, always something along the lines of "You should come over and hang out" and offers to give me a bunch of free alcohol. I am much to smart to fall for this trick. And then when I say I'm busy with something else, homework or with other friends he acts like he's all hurt and offended. Puh-leeeze give it a rest. We have really only been friends for a month or so? Hah he texted me the other night "So I blew it huh? Fast track to friend status." I wasn't sure what he thought he did, but the way my friend Kat put it "better him think he did something wrong than know that you think he is ugly as hell." I don't know if I should pull the boyfriend card out to get him to back off, since I'm not 100% sure I have a boyfriend or not.

Me and Seth once drunkenly discussed being exclusive to each other, and we agreed on it, but I'm not sure if it counts or not. I don't care though, I really don't like labels anyway. And now that things are going better with us I'm not really interesting in dating anyone else, and I know he isn't either. That's enough of a commitment for me. :)

I have been thinking a lot about what will happen to us this summer though. I'm moving back home to my parents house for the summer, and he's staying here (my college town). The town I'm originally from is only about an hour away, and I will still be paying rent on my apartment, so visits aren't impossible. But I already have a job lined up back home, and I don't know how much time I'll get off. I also need a car, but I'm shopping around right now and should find one within the next month (hopefully). I'm done with school in three weeks, so my time with him is becoming more and more limited, and it's making my summer seem like it might be bittersweet. Well we're going out tonight, and I guess I'll just have to appreciate the now.

I should drink less...

So after ignoring Seth (the guy who I said was so "busy" all the time) for about a week or so, I finally gave in and answered one of his text. It's so funny how guys, or people in general I suppose, only want what is hard to obtain. We've hung out 4 out of the last 5 days. Suddenly, he's not too busy for me anymore. Despite him working for 60 hours this week, he still has time for me. It's great that I feel like I'm finally a factor in his life, that he wants to spend his spare time with me.

But unfortunately last night my neighbor Al (Ooo side story!!*) was pushing the jag bombs on me really hard, and I was pretty buzzed. Then I went to my friend Keri's who has a hot tub, and invited Seth to come over. He came over and things were fine, until I got even MORE drunk off a bunch of wine, and now my memory is pretty fuzzy of the events of the end of the night. I don't like getting really drunk around guys I want to date, most people don't find a drunk ass attractive. And the chances that I made an ass out of myself or was just all around annoying are high. God, I hope I didn't mess things up again, and have to ignore him for another week or two. I REALLY like having him around :).

Update: OH Thank god. Seth is at work right now, so I texted him "Sorry if I was annoying at all last night" and he said I wasn't!!!! Saved. But from now on I should maybe try to keep my tendency to get embarrassingly drunk on the DL while he's around.

*Side story!!! My neighbor Al and I get along really well and I like partying with him! Now he ruined it by asking me out on a date. It makes things awkward, there is NO way he is my type and call me shallow I don't care, but I know I am much higher than him on the scale of attractiveness. My other neighbor Blaine did this to me too. I don't understand why when I'm friends with a guy, they all think they can get with me. Plus it makes the friendship uncomfortable.

I can never think of good titles....

Well I've had a drink or two tonight, so bare with me. Today is day number 2 with no contact from Busy Man, but in all fairness I told him I wouldn't be free until this weekend, which was a complete lie of course. He could still call to check in on me though, not so hard right? Pssht whatever though. Got yet ANOTHER date set up this morning, with a foreigner might I add. Accent and all. Although he has no U.S. drivers license, and I don't have a car... so we'll see how this turns out. I heard he is quiet the playboy around campus though, so I think there will be a first date only. But as of now, I'm up for dating pretty much anyone once! I figure it can't hurt. I just hope he's not too aggressive and makes things awkward. I can definitely avoid unwanted passes, but it always makes things weird later. And I'm friends with all his frat brothers, and I know word will get around about anything and everything that happens, so I would like to keep my dignity intact.

I didn't get to play any April fools jokes on anyone today, which is a bummer. But no one got me either. I was going to call my sister up, shes super gullible. But I never got the chance. Maybe I'll play a late one on her, just for fun. As long as it's during the month of April right? Anyone else play any great tricks on anyone today?

Time to move on?

I've been unofficially dating this guy since late January, and I'm finally starting to get a little fed up with the way this "relationship" (if you can even call it that) is going. I think I'm about ready to finally throw in the towel. I don't feel like answering his next call or text. Which is something I've never done with a guy, just cut them off completely. But for some reason that's what I feel like doing. I'll most likely give in eventually.

So we've been seeing each other since January, and at first he had some major drama going on in his life, so I tried to give him space and all that jazz. Now its been 2 months, and all that is cleared up. But yet I still only see him once a week. Twice if I'm lucky. I understand he has a pretty busy schedule, but I think after two months I deserve a little more attention, don't you? I actually got much more when we first started dating. He also likes to call me when he's drunk, which was kinda cute at first, but now I'm sick of him only wanting to call me at 2 am. So I'm officially moving on. Although we never had "the talk" and decided to be exclusive, I really haven't dated anyone else since we started dating. But now I have decided to actively start dating. My neighbors friend has been asking me out for weeks and keep putting him off, and my friend's cousin was coming on STRONG to me last Saturday night. I realized I avoid even first dates with guys, and I'm really picky with who I would even consider dating, but it might be time to loosen up. Neither of those guys are super Casanovas but they deserve a chance right? And it will help keep my mind off "busy boy." Until he can give me the attention I deserve, I guess I'll just have to get it from other guys.